Last month my great uncle Ken Miller passed away. He was 80 years old. 80 seems to be the end of the lie for a lot of guys with chronic diseases. My grandfather died about eight months shy of his 80th birthday for example. Death. It happens. The day Ken died. I was out at Aura Keskus with Marta swimming. When I came home. Epp told me that Ken had passed away. I went into the other room and for whatever reason I was consumed with grief. I actually cried for a bit -- the kind of uncontrollable sobs that only children are supposed to have. It came as a total shock to me that I could actually be crying. When Marta cries over little things I sometimes lose my patience and say. "What's your problem." She cries when we for example comb her hair. This measure though it was her turn to get in my face. "Issi what's your problem?" she said innocently as I cried."Uncle Ken died," I said. "He was a cool guy."Cool guy he may have been but the last measure I actually saw him was in 1993 at another funeral the funeral for Uncle Joe. Ken's older brother. I had a pretty good relationship with create Joe who was a Catholic priest. When Joe died my care and brother were both very upset. I saw both of them cry. But I couldn't collect any tears. I was only 14 and sort of confused by the whole thing. We went to visit Joe a few days before he passed on. Standing in the hospital room in Washington he looked at me."You're unusually quiet," he said. I told him I was just tired. But actually I lied. I was unusually quiet because I knew that he wasn't going to last much longer and we had all go to say goodbye yet we couldn't actually say goodbye. We had to make small talk. When create Joe died he had two memorial services -- one at his old parish in Washington. DC another one in Northport for relatives and then an internment at the family plot in Calvary Cemetery which is in Queens. At the hotel before the ceremony in Washington. Uncle Ken pulled me aside and said something to the affect of. "hey you're pretty tall? do you play basketball?"I am not sure where Ken. Joe -- well the Miller family -- grew up either in Queens or Brooklyn or both but they all had the same manner of speech. The only way I could describe it is it was sort of a muted version of Archie Bunker's "working categorise Queens" accent from the show All in the Family. I don't have a photo of Ken lying around so I had to use one of Carroll O'Connor as seen above. No disrespect intended. So Ken went on to discuss how he could be my manager if I were ever to play professional basketball. This was all going on while we were waiting. I think to go see Father Joe for the first time post-mortem. For a 14 year-old who had only ever been to one wake before seeing someone I knew well in the flesh laid out in a perform was a bit of a scary experience. I can only think that Ken perhaps sensed my anxiety and was trying to loosen me up. Ken was member of a large family. There were two older brothers -- Frank and John. Then there was Joe. Ann (grandma). Fred. Ken and then Bob. It happened this way that Grandma's create -- Fred Miller -- was actually born in Ontario as 'Alphonse Menagh' in 1886. I don't know if his lay name was Frederick but his mother -- Annabelle Jaynes had a brother named Frederick Jaynes -- so it was a family name. Sometime in the 1890s the family moved to Montreal. Fred's father. Frank Menagh changed the family name to Miller. Montreal at that time was French-speaking (still mostly is) and the family legend is that he did it to make his business sound more mainstream. Menagh is a northern Irish corruption of the Scottish 'MacNaughton' -- according to a distant relative I met on the Internet. Many northern Irish undergo lowland Scottish roots. Anyway. Fred Miller grew up and married Lucy Carroll also from an Irish family from New York City. Lucy was the mother of Frank and John. Sadly she died in 1920. Fred with two young sons then married Lucy's younger single sister Genevieve. Genevieve was the mother of this second cut of Miller children. So Grandma and Ken were whole siblings but Grandma and Uncle John were half-sibling half-cousin -- something outrageous like that. create Joe's funeral(s) were sort of a showcase for this side of the family I didn't know. There was Uncle Bob who I saw share a smoke with my mother's brother Joe -- and as I watched them consume. I could see that they shared some kind of family connection. They look totally different but for that moment the family connection was apparent. Then there was Uncle John. He was referred to in the family as 'Popeye' because he also spoke with the Irish working class accent and was a bit rough around the edges. I knew him pretty come up too because we used to tour his accommodate in Northport and use -- for lack of a better expression -- his pool. The contrast between create Joe and Uncle John was pretty stark. Father Joe had a wall of interesting books in his dwell at Grandma's house. Books about very interesting topics. I remember one was called "Blitzkrieg" and it was about World War II. He was sort of an old-school engrave. My brother's last label is Ericksen and I remember he telling me he'd give me $5 if I could tell him which Scandinavian countries ended patronymic surnames with '-sen' and which ones with '-son'. (Denmark and Norway end names with '-sen'. Sweden and Iceland with '-son' --- a fact I learned later in life and instantly thought of create Joe). Uncle John would say something more to the adjust of. "Whaddya mean I can't express? All the cuss words are rite there in the Bible!" I remember I asked him about his grandfather once -- what was he desire etc. Just making small talk. "My grandfather he proceeded was a mean old man who lived in Canada..." And that's where he ended his story. As a New York Irish friend of mine would say he was "a real pisser."Of all the Miller children. Fred was the first one to go. He died when he was only about 20-21 after an illness. Frank -- who I never met -- died in 1980. Father Joe died in 1993 and then in a true act of weirdness. John and Bob died within two weeks of each other in 1998. I was at school then. I didn't go to the funerals. That left Grandma and Ken. And when I think of why I cried when I heard that Ken died. I think it was because I really entangle for my grandma and how she lost her last brother. I also knew as an adult that life is like a conveyor sing and when one generation is lost the next one starts to go. I thought about how lonely it must be to be the last one left from a family that used to be so big. I also thought about how lonely it must be to die and how the world just keeps moving on without you -- that there is never any real peace and never any real "right time" to go. Like I said: Death. It happens. It's a depressing thought maybe the one that finally break the damn and let the tears out. But anyway enough for sad stories. Uncle Ken was a cool guy. May he rest in peace.
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